Tomorrow my decision becomes TRULY official. Tomorrow is the day I finally tell my students that I’m not coming back.
My hand was pretty much forced. I knew I was going to wait until after Memorial Day to say something. I have a lab report project due this week (tomorrow and Wednesday, to be exact) and I didn’t want the students checking out before I even assigned it. However, I hadn’t decided if it was going to be immediately after, or if I was going to wait until the last week. Eventually the schedule for the last week was released, and I realized that we were having all half days, meaning no Advisory. Naturally, I had to tell my students before then- but should it be at the start of the week, so that I had the entire week with my class, or should it be on Friday, the day when we normally have circle?
So how did I eventually make the decision? Well on Friday, during our drive to Disneyland, the drama teacher let it slip that two of my favorite students from last year already know- apparently they posted a list in the office about the class schedules for next year, and under Anatomy & Physiology it says “new teacher.” Would have been nice if I’d gotten a heads up about that so I could have told my students before word began to spread…but what are you gonna do? I have no idea how many students know- I haven’t even seen this list and I’m often in the office, so I imagine it isn’t TOO conspicuous…but the point is that I need to break the news before it becomes common knowledge.
Anyway, it’s been quite a long time since I wrote. I always say I’m going to fall out of this pattern, and yet here I am again. Oddly enough it’s been a weird few weeks, mostly because I’ve been super busy, either with TFA stuff or meeting up with people in this attempt to gain some sort of guidance or leads on future employment opportunities. So, in an attempt to catch up on what’s been going on, here’s a list of the most important things that have happened since I last posted, from least important to most important.
1. I signed up for Lyft.
For those who don’t know, Lyft is essentially a ride-share service, cheaper cabs with young, friendly drivers, fast service- since I discovered it a little under a year ago I’ve only taken a cab about 3 times. I’d been thinking about it casually for a while, and had mentioned it to the drama teacher. He signed up before I did, as a way to make extra money over summer, then realized that he had to do 30 rides in 30 days in order to get approved, so he started immediately. In an attempt to earn extra money before our Vegas trip, he went hard for about two weeks, and made about $700. That was enough to convince me. While I’m excited to know that I’ll have a source of income while I’m unemployed, it does make me nervous and a little embarrassed that for a while, I will have to explain to people that it is my primary form of income. Additionally, it makes the whole unemployment thing a bit too real.
2. I have a boyfriend.
The drama teacher, officially. We’d been dating for almost seven months when we had the discussion on May 3. Initially, I wasn’t planning to bring it up again until school ended, but after literally four people asking me in one week I became visibly upset when something that should have been small set me off during dinner, and he pried until I gave in and told him what was on my mind. After a conversation that was fairly embarrassing on my end due to my lack of rationality, he finally told me that he had been ready to make it official for a while, but was following the history teacher’s advice and trying to plan a creative way to ask me, since he’d made such a big deal about it before.
If this were my other blog, or a journal of mine, this news would be at the top of the list. Pretty significant, given that I’ve had two people call me their girlfriend prior to this, and in hindsight neither of them count aas real relationships. However, this blog is more about my professional life, meaning I have to reprioritize. But as far as employment goes, this is significant in the sense that it gives me more of a tie to Los Angeles. Say June 6 rolled around, Zach told me he didn’t want to make it official yet, and I had to guts to follow through on my promise to myself to break things off under that condition…I wouldn’t have any true ties. The longer I stick around, the more friends leave Los Angeles- this year alone, one of my best friends who I’ve known since high school is moving to NOLA for grad school, and another close friend is moving back to San Diego once she graduates in three weeks. I don’t even know if my current roommate and I are going to be living together in a few months.
Should a boyfriend really be a tie to a city? I always told myself I wouldn’t become one of “those girls” who stays around just for a guy. And yet, here I am trying to look exclusively for jobs in LA. Granted, no other jobs I’m serious about have come up…but for now it is what it is.
3. I had a job interview.
This was a big one. The second most involved job application I’ve completed since the first stage of TFA. I would kill for this job. I’ve followed this online editorial company for five years. I love their writing style. It would involve continuous writing, as well as scouting out locations of new cool events that are happening in LA. Two and a half months after I submitted, when I’d given up on hearing from them, I got a request for a phone interview. And when it happened, I thought it went really well. I was told that if I made it I’d hear back for a follow up and a second writing sample within a week…and nothing. So it was a huge glimmer of hope, then it was all pulled away.
I’m sure there’s more…but for now, these are the things that are defining my life, and the two weeks that remain of my employment. Until next time.